My Life.. My Mind .. Day In And Out

And I miss you when you're gone, that is what I do.

And time goes by, so slowly, and time can do so much. Are you, still mine?

Empty spaces fill me up with holes, distant faces, with no place left to go. Without you, within me, I can find no rest.

You're my life's one miracle.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could use a wish right now.

Guess I must be wishin' on someone else's star.

The long and winding road that leads to your door will never disappear.

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do, to make you feel my love.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part.

One more day, one more time, one more sunset I'd be satisfied, but then again I know what it would... Leave me wishing still for one more day with you.

There's a possibility, There's a possibility that all that I had was I was gonna get.

But I swear, you'll be blessed... And you, you'll be blessed. You'll have the best, i promise you that. I'll promise you that I'll pick a star from the sky, pull your name from a hat, I promise you that you'll be blessed.

And I'll take with me the memories, to be my sunshine after the rain.

Just yesterday morning, they let me know you were gone.

I'm trying to put this thing to bed, I drugged it in it's sleep. There isn't many memories I'm comfortable to keep.

Staring out, depressed about the words I have to bleed, so torn apart. Crying, desperate, fighting questions, scared to let go.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me. I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out. I'm not afraid to cry every once and awhile even though going on with you gone still upsets me, there are days, every now and again I pretend I'm okay, but that's not what gets me. What hurts the most, was being so close.

I hope you're doing fine out there without me, cuz I'm not doing so good without you.

If I could be like that, I would give anything. Just to live one day in those shoes.

I'm so tried of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears... And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave, your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real, there's just to much that time can not erase.

And do you know the silent sorrows of a never ending journey through the pain? Do you see a brighter day for me, another day, a day... Do you wonder what's in store for me, the cure for me, the way? I look down, see the tears I've cried, lives I've lied and deaths I've died.

It's just tears and rain.

Ten Tough Things About Being A Military Wife...

1. DeploymentsThese are I think the number one reason to dislike being a military wife. Nobody likes deployments, worrying about our husbands and being lonely at home, but we all have to go through with them.
Ways to Deal:
As a lot of people said in their posts yesterday, deployments are a way to help us grow. Ways to deal are to seek support of others: from God, friends, and church. It's still not easy, but it definitely helps to have support!

2. Being Away From Friends and FamilyHere is on that has been tough for me. I really miss being away from friends and family. I miss Florida so much, and get sad when I see people on facebook, who get to go to Florida all the time. I know it's part of the military life, but that still does not make it easy.
Ways to Deal:
I don't think anything can make up for your own friends and family, but making new friends where you are stationed helps a lot.

3. LonelinessBecause we are away from friends and family, I find that loneliness can creep in a lot. Loneliness is especially bad when your husband is gone as well. Sometimes just being home alone all day just makes for a rough day.
Ways to Deal:
Talk to God. Tell Him you are lonely and remember He is always with you. Spend time with friends as you can, that helps a lot and keeps your mind off the loneliness.

4. MovingFor military members moving is a part of life, and sometimes that can be difficult after moving so many times, or moving while you have kids. It's hard to adjust each time, and hard to leave friends behind and make new ones.
Ways to Deal:
Make it fun, and have a good attitude!

5. Work ScheduleMy husband is on call a lot, and that means he can get called in at anytime day or night. We have been in the middle of church and had to leave, and he almost missed Easter Sunday as well. It can be very frustrating.
Ways to Deal:
Have a good attitude and find other stuff to do do keep busy if he has to work.

6. Finding Your Place After a MoveAfter moving so many times, it gets hard to each time make new friends, find a new church, and find your place in the community. Sometimes it only takes a little while other times it can take months depending on where you live.
Ways to Deal:
Reach out to others, volunteer, find military wives groups.

7. Having to go to the Military Doctors.I could go on and on about this one because I have a lot to say on the matter after having a lot of problems with the Doctors we see here on this base, but I won't. I do like the health care coverage, but I wish we were allowed to go ahead and choose our own doctors who are not part of the base and who have more schooling.
Ways to Deal:
Pray. Be patient. Pray.

8. Not being able to Plan AheadThis is a big one for me, because I am a person who likes to plan ahead. The military just does not let you do that. You cannot plan too much because anything could change at anytime, any number of times. It's just the way of military life and I have come to expect it.
Ways to Deal:Know that you cannot always plan, and be prepared for change no matter what.
9. Drama
I did not realize how much drama was involved with being a military wife or even having a husband in the military. I do my part to stay out of it, but even my husband tells me stories of things that he deals with and it amazes me how drama is even in the military!
Ways to Deal:
Stay away from it, and know that drama will probably be there no matter where you go!
10. Being Supportive
I know this may sound weird, but sometimes with all the things we go through like those that I mentioned above, it sometimes gets really hard to be supportive of your husband. Especiallyafter he mentions he is going on another deployment, going back to work after he just got home, or is going to miss a certain even because he will be working or deployed.Ways to Deal:Ask God to help you be supportive no matter what. Remember that he needs the encouragement just as much as you do!

military wife survival tips..

1. Learn to be independent. Odds are, your spouse will spend time away from home for various reasons. This means you will be in charge of bills, cooking, cleaning, childrearing, etc. If you can't handle this without your spouse, you will never be able to survive as a military wife. This is true whether or not you work outside the home.

2. Be prepared for things to happen. Your spouse leaves for an extended period of time. All hell breaks loose in the house. This can include any or all of the following: illness of you or kids, car breaks down, anything in the house breaks down, death and natural disasters. The important thing is to go with the flow. Know that things happen. Don't live your life in fear, but don't be surprised when things happen.

3. Know that you will move every few years. It is the rare military person that spends years in one place. Know that you will move, and if they military pays to move you, as opposed to you moving yourself and the military paying you, that things will probably get broken or damaged. There's an old joke about military families buying all their stuff at Wal-Mart, because they have to replace things all the time. As has been stated: things happen. Be prepared to move at a moment's notice.

4. Perhaps the most important thing is to keep a sense of humor! If you don't have a sense of humor, you will NEVER be able to be a military wife. A sense of humor will get you through the hard times: illness, moving, problems, etc. One day, you will look back on your experiences. It is better to laugh about them to look back and lament the things that went wrong.

These 4 tips will help you make the adjustment from being a "normal" civilian to being a military wife. The military life is never easy, but it is never boring, either. It's a different way of life, but one that can be lived with much enjoyment!